Everything at once

I'm trying to revel in what a gorgeous (almost) fall day it is today. I love everything about September! Let me count the ways... I love the weather, back to school, fall clothes, my anniversary, my birthday, the song by Earth, Wind, and Fire.... (he he)

Now for updates:
My (attempted) ultrasound last week was a huge waste of four hours. He couldn't see anything because my lining was too thin to get a contrast. Of course, they told me to come in as soon as I was done bleeding, it was CD7 so my lining was guaranteed to be thin. So tomorrow, I go in for a repeat u/s and my mock transfer. Part of me is petrified that the septum will still be there/be too big and we'll have to push back our IVF yet again, and we'll have to have surgery yet again. I'm still spotting (like I did for the three weeks post-op) and it's CD12 (and five wks post-op), so I'm afraid I'm not healing properly.

My IVF gift box is scheduled to arrive on Saturday (so we can sign for it) as I didn't want it delivered to work. Actually S will be signing for it, as I will be downtown, at yet another dr., getting a mammogram. I still can't believe that those words are even coming out of my mouth, I'm 33 for crying out loud. I recently discovered a new "knot" in my left breast that my gyne thinks is nothing (she doesn't get excited about much). But since it's new, she's sending me to get it checked out.

With both of my septum surgeries, I've been on high dose estrogen to help with healing and over those six weeks (in February and August), I've taken the equivalent of two years of hormone replacement therapy. You know the stuff they don't reco anymore bc it causes higher cancer rates. :( I don't think I have cancer, I'm just so tired of dealing with health issues. I used to be a really healthy person, really.

I'm also thinking of getting on medication to deal with my latest health "situation" (see: Cape fun). I got a call that my test results were in from my gyne, but will have to wait until tomorrow when she is back in the office to get them.

I am so hoping that some time off of work will get me to a better place physically and mentally, as I will either need to be ready in six weeks to be pregnant or be prepared to deal with not being pregnant post-IVF, and going back to work either way. I wish I knew things were going to get better before they get worse...