Waiting

I went back to the clinic this morning for the first time since my unfortunate trip early last Thursday morning. They did a blood draw for my hCG, which is now already amazingly down to 335 from nearly 17K last week (9 hrs. post-m/c). I will continue to have this tested weekly, until it is back down to zero, which will take several weeks (and possibly a month or more) depending on how my body flushes it out.

I will not hear anything back on the fetal testing until tomorrow, as contrary to what they had initially been told by the testing clinic in CA, it takes a full seven days from when they receive it. I also had another u/s, which I had requested a few days ago to check my progress, and this time it was with Dr. S (my IVF RE). It was the first time I had seen him in more than two weeks, since our only pregnancy u/s, and he was visibly upset to see me back in my state.

He found that I still have loose blood in my uterus, which is not abnormal and that my lining was much thinner than last week. He brought up a D&C again, but also said that it was unnecessary and that most people do them so that they can move on faster and not continue to bleed out naturally, but the risk to one now (potential scarring) exceeds the benefit. Period bleeding I can handle, I was just concerned that I might still have tissue in there that could cause problems. Once we know more, we'll be sitting down to discuss next steps.

Yesterday was the first day in a week that I didn't have extreme pain (though I did take an "accidental" four hour nap with my heating pad), so hopefully that is a good sign too. I get to scale back my iron pills to once a day (from 3x now), and stop when I am no longer bleeding, which has been consistent, but now seems to be subsiding.

I feel a little guilty saying this, but I feel better physically right now than I have in months. I can sleep (oh, can I sleep) and I'm feeling strong and healthy, though of course I'd trade it in a nano-second to be pregnant again...

I decided to come into the office today briefly to tell my old boss, who I'm still working with on my project but I no longer report to, why I've been out of the office, as he was getting antsy. He was very nice and just happened to also do IVF to have his two young sons. You just never know, right?

Only three more days until DH comes home. I.can't.wait...