And now we wait, again...

You would think that the whole 2ww would get easier the more you do it, but nope it still sucks. I O'd about a week late for me this month, and I'm not sure if my standard 12 day LP will hold or not. So I'll probably test near the end of the month. I've been going to acupuncture religiously every week since December and that is supposed to be helping to lengthen my LP, but I haven't really had a normal cycle since then, so we'll see. It's basically like we are starting over now that my septum friend is gone.

My Dad and step-mom (A) stayed over last night, as they were passing through town on their way to OH to prepare my g-ma L's house for her return from her winter in assisted living. She is losing her mind ever faster, so it's just a short matter of time before she will not be able to live alone and will likely move up to WI and into a facility where her safety is more assured. I managed to give them every remaining private detail of our IF struggle as we were waiting for S to get home from work. I think it's probably more than they wanted to know, but they are very kind.

I am putting stakes in the ground for things to look forward to and right now it's the opening of our very own Whole Foods on May 5th (absolutely thrilling, right?) which I can literally see from my office window. In my dreams, I picture my pg self roaming the aisles filling my cart with the best food I can find.



Then next up is my phone consult with Dr. David in NYC on May 20th (if I'm not pg by then, of course). I'm not sure what else he can do that we haven't already done, but it'll be a last ditch effort before we go to IVF (eek!). I'm trying not to think that far ahead, but just focus on the next few months.

Work continues to be insane. They apparently have no plans to replace my boss, contrary to what I had previously been told. I am having a very hard time concentrating and I am incredibly apathetic about all things Z related. I'm not sure how we are going to figure this out. I'm "locked in" for a year because of my signing bonus and tuition reimbursement, but that is actually somewhat helpful in keeping me from just walking out the door some days. I will, again, need to figure out a plan for when, if, we ever get pg. I don't know that this pace is sustainable.